How to Pray into your Yesterday?
I knew everything happened for a reason, but I didn't sit down and spiritually break down my circumstances.
Throughout my life, I have dealt with financial situations on and off, not managing money well and so on. I have also had so many spiritual attacks that left me staring into space asking God what it meant and who was out to get me. I always prayed about every dream or situation and left it to God as you do, but I didn't realise that I wasn't asking God to show me why things were happening in my life causing me to be defeated and question myself. I mean all I knew was to pray and keep praying, through my walk with Christ I realised there are ways to pray and there are areas to pray into.
I started working at 15 (why?!)- didn't see the money, what was savings?
At 18, worked three jobs-didn't understand money, where were the funds?
At 20, worked two jobs, lived rent free and still found myself starving with no food
At 22, on my birthday I became homeless which lasted for two years!
And so on, small patterns happening and when I look back and pray I guess I could see the enemy's hand on my finances. I could also see where wisdom wasn't my strong point, but we live and learn.
There are four doors of spiritual attacks; deception, ignorance, sin and storms of life.
I first heard of sources; finding out the source to your pain or spiritual attacks and why you can't successfully move from season to another without carrying the burdens. "Find your source" I could hear whilst thinking sheesh - will I ever find out anything?
I had a heavy dream and after, I went to research and pray about why and what my sources were. Being attacked came from the sin of my family partaking in demonic forces which lead to severe conflicts between my mother and me. As I am a Christian and had always been covered, the warfare will continue as good vs evil. My responsibility is to pray and stay in it. My ignorance caused an attack in terms of doors opening, as when I was delivered from fear and pain of the conflict I did not pray for covering or for my mother as a continuance. (It is important for me to know the sources so I can pray and understand my calling) Family curses are different from generational curses, the power of your parent's tongue is stronger biblically than a child to their parents.
"The soothing tongue is a tree of life, but a perverse tongue crushes the spirit."
Proverbs 15:4
"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen."
Ephesians 4:29
My mother has said things to me negatively that has affected my adult life (Let's not pretend I have not said some choice words to her, though I have apologised and sought forgiveness) I must pray for God to open the channels of reconciliation... and serenity is very important 'Have I prayed and received peace about this decision?'
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus"
Philippians 4:5-6
When I came to study the Book of Luke, chapter one spoke to me about seeing what God can do for us if we believe and have faith and by the time I got to chapter 11, Holy Spirit was speaking of Him as the source of staying close in order to stay high on strength to get through these obstacles the enemy is slamming down.
Staying close to the Lord is so important because He shows us about us and how to deal with obstacles. Persistence prayer helps us recognise God's work.
"The best gift God could give us is Holy Spirit"
Acts 2:1-4
Chapter 12 made me so thankful for everything that's happened in life and understanding that money is not just for me but how am I helping others and how much am I using for God's Kingdom. It really had me thinking and rethinking the future and how can I bring my life in line with His purpose.
How should you change in order to reflect Kingdom values?
Then I started thinking about my finances and debts...
I prayed and spoke to my Lord and Saviour about it all and reading chapter 13 He revealed to me the source of my finances and why the enemy keeps trying to steal it.
Chapter 13 for me was my healing for my yesterday. My mother knew no better and did the best in her ability to raise me, (n.b My family are not Christians) however she did speak over my life about finances negatively and also told the rest of my family these things, -_- the same family that are on the enemy's side, which I believed for a long time from the ages of 15-18 till my late 20s and I guess until this day where I'm realising more and more as I draw closer to God.
I spent a good moment with God praying into my yesterday, calling everything I could remember those days and what my mother said and how I felt at that moment and cancelling the enemy's decisions and so forth. Then I went on to pray and ask God on how to use my finances and make financial decisions to benefit Him, the better way to live. So important when you are shown revelation to really keep praying into that situation.
It feels so amazing that I have a Father who understands me and loves me and wants me to change so I can live entirely for Him. The infirm woman in Luke 13 dealt with her problem for 18 years and yet she still had faith as small as a mustard seed. Faith is big! Do we really have faith, are we trusting God with every area of our lives? It is difficult because the flesh is so weak, yet through it all, we must try to die to our flesh each day we seek God.
I can't go around saying it's my mother's fault, however, the enemy will jump on anything sinking and years and years went by with me dealing with difficulty and praying on the first level but not seeking my God and using wisdom as well as faith to close these doors the enemy was peeping and then running in. (So many attacks on my finances)
But parents and people, in general, speak freely without thinking about the spiritual consequences, the enemy is always listening and waiting to keep you down.
How can you pray into your yesterday?
Speaking over my own life is very important and I speak great positive things over my head. If I do doubt or worry...I have to remember that;
"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind"
2 Timothy 1:5
I have learned to pray differently and specifically in the area of finances and family curses and ties. I am aware now that Jesus restores all that is dead and I will never leave His side. As for my family, one can only forgive and pray they come to Christ.
Be Beautiful and Choose Happiness x
